So...its all come down to this...i have been trying my hardest my enitre life and i find out i have been living a lie...lets start off from the basics

I was the average business man. Worked at the the same building every day without any worries...but something went wrong. My wife...or who i though was my wife left me she wanted me to try harder...and i have been trying my hardest...So she left. I was crushed i looked for help but i couldnt find any. I soon got over it

 

but then it kicked in

I didnt know what was wrong i would come home every night fever in the upper hundreds...it was hard to breath...i didnt know what was wrong...i decided it couldnt get worse but i went to the hospital...and they said i had cancer...so that was it....i only had a minimal amount of time left on this earth

 

I knew the next step

 

With the short amount of time i had had left i began researching Physics and Esoteric knowladge i would punish those who had a better life and i would do it with mind games and traps.... but i wasnt achieving the goal i wanted...so i killed myself....BUT I DIDNT DIE!!! i was soon taken to this strange place where i was offered two pills it all seemed un important at the time but Human Intellect would have made the corect choice...so i did and i regret it....i want to go back to the ordinary life i had...before all of this...and if i cant..blood will spill