Kerevola's diary - Recursion - 4/5/06

**Veil**

My dears, I'd like to introduce you to a good friend of mine, Kerevola. She feels, as do many of you, the cruel loss of the sweet life she knew before the veil was ripped, unrequested, from her eyes. She expresses her pain so beautifully that I'd like to share some of the thoughts she has written about her own experience.

"I don’t even know why I keep writing in this thing. It’s not as if I can take it back with me. It’s not like I will remember anything once I have returned. It’s not like anyone will be able to read it once we have finished what has to be done. Still, writing for me has always been soothing; a welcome feeling considering the state of affairs lately. I remember when I had much more time for it in my old life. These days, it seems that time is spent more on fighting. Be it arguing in the streets with redpills that choose to hear rather than listen, or in a shootout against many of the same, who want nothing more than to harm us, I find my hands wrapped around my weapon more than around a good book.

"It’s nothing I wasn’t prepared for. The path of being a protector was not meant to be an easy one. Nothing about my new life has been easy, though I didn’t ask for most of it. This point is lost on most of the redpills. They convince themselves that everyone they decide to pull out has been given an explanation that they are choosing to throw away everything they have ever known. I’m sure if they had any idea what really goes on, they might be a bit more understanding, but they don’t care. Zion is so obsessed with swelling their ranks I’d be surprised if they are even offering blue pills anymore. People like me are what they created. They brought this upon themselves.

"I had a life... I had loved ones close to me. I was surrounded by people that made me happy. I remember peaceful days... stepping out on my balcony as the sun rose, a steaming cup of coffee in my hands, the warmth of the sun and the soothing breeze against my skin washing away what little worries I had. I was truly lucky to be alive, and I never forgot it. So who cares that I felt it was a little too good to be true? I asked a few harmless questions, did a little research out of curiosity, big deal. I never asked to leave it all behind, so who gave those people the right to come looking for me? What right did they have to lead me to believe the truth was something I wanted? How was I supposed to know the consequences of the choice? No one could ever possibly fathom that their entire universe was fabricated. How dare they assume that I or anyone else could have foreseen this!

"Someday, I will have that life I yearn so dearly for back again. Someday, the countless nights of crying myself to sleep will end. I don’t know when that day will come, as there is much to do first, but it will. We know that they would only come looking for us again, telling us anything we wanted to hear, as long as we took that pill. I will never suffer through that pain again. I will not allow everything I ever loved, everything I ever hated; everything I ever knew to be torn from me all over again. I will do what has to be done to make sure of that, or I will die trying. This is not a life that people deserve, and I will protect others from it, and from that same pain that created me.

"Cryptos has done well spreading his word. There are many that have realized they aren’t all that different than we are, and many have joined together with us. Personally, I think it’s time for my own spreading of the word, and I think the rage that burns inside me is all that I need to do so. It’s about time that they felt a little pain themselves. Perhaps that will bring them around, but if not, at least I’ll feel a little better."

Dearies, keep Kerevola in your thoughts as you fight for the right to return to the lives you once enjoyed. You are not alone, and together, we can recapture the dream that has been stolen from us.

xoxo

Veil <3

Shadow Griever · 04/10/2006 20:02:49

Veil I am not unsympathetic to your motives, I believe that once freed a person should be allowed back in and vice versa. It's hard being in the real world, facing the truth. Even Neo fought it at first. I myself, am one who escaped without the use of a pill, I had no choice in becoming free, that's why I agree with your motives. What I am not in agreement with is your "by any means necessary" attititude in accomplishing this goal. You, Veil, when you were once called Toorima of the Novalis II, murdered Vashuo in cold blood, for what? to be free? there are other ways Veil. What you and Cryptos are doing is causing further unrest that endangers both the redpills you've become a part of and the bluepills you wish to be again.

Message Edited by Shadow Griever on 04-11-200612:02 AM

Seperioth

((I'm in the 3rd picture!! lol ))

Your story sounds like a sad one.... To bad you still fight.... Thus your stories not so sad anymore. You have the choice on how to live your life. Being a redpill has many paths. You just have to find one that intrests you. Until you do, you will be unfullfilled. GL in your search.

Dragn-Mastyr

You do not go the struggle alone, Kerevola... Bethany. No, never alone. Some day, we will leave this nightmare behind. We will find our peace, and our sleep, eventually. When we can be satisfied that never again will people be awakened into a world that they do not want and do not need.

The world where we belong is not one of cold deckplates, endless night, and tasteless gray slop for food. We will find our way to a warm house, loving family, and home-cooked meal again. Stay steadfast, stay the course. Our time is coming.

We are coming.

**AItais**

Someone call the Waambulance, we got a upset maskie here.

Please, no one forced the truth on you. No one held you down and shoved the redpill down your throat, that was your choice and you have to deal with it. You asked questions and you got the truth. No one said it was going to be easy.

Must try harder Veil, sob stories won't work.

Steege

The Real is a cold, dark, miserable place to live in. I remember my first months out there; the constant gnaw of a stomach never satisfied with such simple nourishment. Night after night, shivering in the icebox that is a hovercraft, with the only means of warming up being a shot of barely potable degreaser. Coming to terms with the fact that everything I had ever experienced and known was a lie.

But no matter how difficult life in the Real gets, no matter how hard the simple struggle for survival is, the one thing that keeps me going is purpose. I know that I am fighting for something greater than myself and my own petty desires. I know that my own pain and suffering mean nothing in the midst of a war for humanity itself!

Just remember, you are not alone. We are all in this together. Unfortunately, some of you do not wish to accept this, and instead choose to pursue your own dangerous and selfish dreams. Do not condemn yourself to existing alone in a pod of goo; dying and being liquefied for nothing. There is still hope for you.

Return to Zion. Come home.

**GamiSB**

AItais wrote:
Someone call the Waambulance, we got a upset maskie here.
Please, no one forced the truth on you. No one held you down and shoved the redpill down your throat, that was your choice and you have to deal with it. You asked questions and you got the truth. No one said it was going to be easy.
Must try harder Veil, sob stories won't work.

I think that sums up my response to this as well. Need a tissue?

Here may be this will help. Click Me See there are other people that can't take it. They just solver there problems in a deferent manner.

**FrozenFyre**

Kerevola I don't really have an awful lot of sympathy for you, so you couldn't handle the truth, why not take the time to look at what's going on here- humanity is rebuilding, and no matter what you think of the Matrix, Zion is in the real world. So if you don't want to fight, avoid violence, it's not as hard as it sounds- and if you want to go back talk to the Machines, reinsertion can and has been done. there is no need to align yourself with a group of people who's track record is murder and sabotage. Cypher, who you revere, killed most of his crew, Veil killed Vashuo and one of her own Cypherite operatives- I saw it happen, Cryptos is a violent extremist and Hitch, the first to be reinserted left a trail of corpses behind as he returned to the dreamworld. I see no honour or freedom in this. So run back as you want to- or can you? It seems that your rulers have already turned you to their cause, and you will never be free, because to put everyone back in the Matrix means denying those of us who like the taste of real air the chance to take the risk and be free.

Humanity has a choice- make yours let us make ours.

Redopsin

The Cypherites stand together, and stand strong. We fight for the good of all humans. I don't try to convince our enemies to see us in a different light, because I know such talk is wasted on you. I will only say the Cypherites will continue to fight with and for people like Kerevola until they have a chance for happiness again.

**Wendigo**

Your selfishness knows no bounds. Yes, life in the Real is hard, but it is REAL. Every choice has its consequences, and if you can't handle them, you should not make the choice. You awakened to the truth once, and it will happen again. Obviously it has never occured to you that even if your foolish little plan succeeds and you get reinserted, you will never remember your original awakening. You will live your dream life just the same as before with that odd, nagging sensation that it is too good to be true. You will start asking the hard questions, and once again you will have your choice. The cycle never ends.

You chose the red pill once, now be adult enough to handle the realities that go with it. Ignorance is no solution because the choice will find you again. Imagine your horror at awakening a second time....

Don't waste your time or mine. Listen to Steege, come home, or suffer the consequences.

CrimsonV

**GQubed**

The path to salvation is a hard road indeed, but it is on this path that you will pass those that have chosen the easy route of ignorance as they are lost and wandering in the wilderness. There is help, you must only open your eyes to find it.

**Illyria22**

Anyone who wants to be reinserted into the Matrix *can* be reinserted. But there are many redpills who don't want to go back. Forcing them to live the way you choose for them isn't right...you can choose for yourself, and yourself only.

Perhaps a truce of sorts could be arranged between the Cypherites and the other organizations -- an official agreement guaranteeing that those who choose to be reinserted will never be contacted again by any redpill. That would be a peaceful, fair way to allow everyone to choose for themselves.

Illyria

00Zero

Illyria22 wrote:
Anyone who wants to be reinserted into the Matrix *can* be reinserted. But there are many redpills who don't want to go back. Forcing them to live the way you choose for them isn't right...you can choose for yourself, and yourself only.

Perhaps a truce of sorts could be arranged between the Cypherites and the other organizations -- an official agreement guaranteeing that those who choose to be reinserted will never be contacted again by any redpill. That would be a peaceful, fair way to allow everyone to choose for themselves.

Illyria

I've discussed this before with cypherites and they don't seem to acknowledge this is as a option,also the ones I spoke with insinuated that the machines were no longer re-inserting red-pills but I wouldn't really know. Needless to say this seems like the best option for everyone,good thinking Illyria.

00Zero

**Villemar_MxO**

Being self-aware and enjoying what The Matrix has to offer is not mutually excluse, you know :smileywink:

Haelios

I know your pain, Kerevola. You have allies, remember that they will do what they can to bring you back to the life you so sorely miss.

Long live the Cypherites!