Of course I am affected, thats the nature of the human mind, to be affected by surroundings, but the thing is I don't embrace it. I make an attempt to break free of it. You seem to be quite content drowning within it and defending it to the grave.
Anything I could say from my own thoughts would just cause drama or speculation or an inquisition, so... all I'm going to do is quote William Shakespeare's words of wisdom:
"To thine ownself be true, and it shall follow as the day the night."